Sunshade

My journey started in the desert.
Satisfied was I with clothes on my back and food to eat.
through out the years spent walking alone,
I was searching for something I could not see.
Farther and farther it lead me into the scorching sun.
The blistering heat was unbearable.
It blinded my eyes and beat upon my back.
I fell on my knees and prayed to God,
and then a shadow fell upon me.

Through the blinding light and flames of the orange orb,
I saw what I was searching for.
I saw Jesus
I saw the cross.
I saw my sin nailed into His perfect flesh,
And I started to cry.

I realized He went through torture
just because He loved me.
Teardrops fell from my eyes and into the sizzling sand
and soon became a flood of tears.
but it was not only tears of my eyes
it was from Jesus.

The flood of tears rose from my ankles
to my knees and to my waist
and it became a sea.
Now my baptism awaits,
a decision made by my heart
and my sin will drown in the sea of His painful tears
and I will be His forever.

The symbol of the cross will be branded upon my heart,
symbolizing His love for me.
To lose the cross would be to live without a heart;
to survive without a vital organ
I will live my life for God
and I will live by His Word.

I will hear His voice
through the whisper of turning pages of the Bible
and His Word will lead me into a new life
of faith, wisdom, and love.
He will once again lead me into the desert,
though no searching I will do.
The sun will no longer hurt me
for God is my protector
and His love will shade me from the sun.

By Andrea Toki
© 1998, 2007